Me, Myself and I

I remember first hearing this song on the radio and finding it so catchy (I'm a sucker for clever rap mixes). G Eazy and Bebe Rexha teamed up for "Me, Myself and I" in 2015, which feels so long ago! I wish they would do another collaboration.

Woooh, it's just me, myself and I Solo ride until I die 'Cause I got me for life (yeah) Woooh, I don't need a hand to hold Even when the night is cold I got that fire in my soul (uh)

I am in the process of reviewing a bunch of older blog entries as I clean out my Google drive and I came across this one from August 12, 2016 and decided it would be fun to grab this poster dubbed "The Self-Reflection Manifesto" and answer a few questions off the cuff like I used to. I think the goal is to answer all 100 questions together but I have a short attention span so I always took a few to noodle on instead.

As a fun exercise I decided to take the same 3 questions I answered 5 years ago and answer them today without reviewing what I said in 2016 - let's see how much my ideals have changed (or not?!).

I picked:

What do you want to achieve 1 year from now? 3 years? 5 years?

What are you passionate about?

What are the biggest things you’ve learned about life to date?

My answers are so funny to read - so many things have stayed the same from a "core values perspective" (family, love, project management, writing, fitness, desire to be a mom) and so many peripheral things have changed (working in TV, selling snacks). One thing that got me very choked up was wanting to do something wonderful to celebrate my parents 45th anniversary, I never expected my mom to be in heaven by this milestone. Derek and I will do something nice with dad to commemorate, but man what I wouldn't give to just have her back for one day.

May 4, 2021

What do you want to achieve 1 year from now? 3 years? 5 years?

A year from now - May 2022 >

I would love to be working on my second book after my first was a smashing success. This is wild but I would love to have found my future husband and be in the process of settling down and starting our family. I've always wanted to be a mom after being raised by the best ever… If I was on track to make that dream come true despite all present obstacles that would be amazing. Still having lots of family time with my lovely gentlemen and my future husband's family. Socializing without masks. Still making fitness a priority. Still making my mom proud.

3 years from now - May 2024 >

Working out the whole freelance PM / full-time mom thing - I became a project manager because I liked being in charge and I knew I would have the flexibility to raise my kids the way my mom raised me - there for everything. Happily married. Still writing. Still having lots of family time. Making fitness and self-care a priority.

5 years from now - May 2026 >

Same? It's going to sound silly but I've conquered so many superficial goals that I really want to just be living a life I love while honoring my amazing mom. 💜

What are you passionate about?

Serious answers first -

  • All those things I loved about my mom (being silly, being loving, being charitable).

  • Spending time with my family.

  • Music - I literally could not live without the ever evolving soundtrack to my life.

  • Creating home cooked meals and desserts that people love.

  • Project management principles - I have made a career out of getting shit done!

  • Balancing my budget and always making sure I plan ahead.

  • Close friends (I don't need a million, just a few I can count on)

  • Becoming someone who has higher quality, but fewer overall items (I'm just someone who cannot pass up a sale on items and that's led me to be a cluttered person)

  • The power of connection and sharing stories

Now for silly ones -

  • Ice cream from Churn & Co

  • Cold brew coffee from Wandering Bear

  • Taking as many photos of life as possible

  • Horoscopes (I read mine religiously)

  • Fresh flowers - they make the house look so bright!

What are the biggest things you’ve learned about life to date?

The cheeky answer is “it goes on” - but really…. It does go on. After the worst heartbreak you have ever felt, you somehow survive and then manage to exist and then eventually thrive again. Life is cyclic like that, as the Passenger song goes:

“But you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missing home

Only know you love her when you let her go”

Over the last year I've learned just how strong I was and how much I really did learn from my amazing mom. 💜 I've learned that sometimes you really don't get what you want - but you can make the best with what you were given. I've learned my job doesn't love me - but my coworkers really do (and for that I'm so grateful).


August 12, 2016

What do you want to achieve 1 year from now? 3 years? 5 years?

Oooh I love this one! I literally have 5 million goals I am driving towards at any given time in every single area of my life. One year from now I would love to be happily maintaining my goal weight, in a great relationship with my Renaissance man (smart, funny, all-around good guy that balances me out) planning our wedding. I have a ton of friends in various stages of wedding planning (and I am mildly obsessed with the show “Married at First Sight” – a topic for a future blog) so I think about weddings often. My ideal would be small, intimate, full of cute little touches that reflect us a couple and on a beach. I just need the people I love the most, a sparkly dress, good music, delicious cake and my super handsome groom – I’m easy! 😉 From a career standpoint I can’t see myself doing anything besides project management because despite the daily chaos I really enjoy it. From a debt standpoint I will be 100% debt free (how AMAZING does that sound?!) by July of 2017. I joked that I’ll need to throw a party – perhaps the wedding can double as a celebration. LOL! Oh it goes without saying but once I know I’m in love and he’s the one – I’m ready to get married. I don’t need a long engagement, I don’t need to spend every season with him – once I’m in, I’m in.

Three years from now I’d love to be in a place where I could scale back to working part-time so I could be a stay-at-home-mom. I can’t wait to have kids and I want to be able to spend as much time with them as possible. I was so fortunate to have my mom available 24X7 and I think it made all the difference in how I turned out (and of course she is now my best friend so emulating her parenting is also the goal!). ❤ Future husband would be a very hands-on dad and love our little house in the suburbs (I’m so not a city mouse). We’d be that family that has fit dates. My little business idea might even take shape by this point (snacks on demand, the most amazing snack delivery services ever….entitled “Just a Taste”. I already have the business plan in my head and the CFO on board!).

Five years from now I’d love to be fueling my awesome little family based off my passion for snacks, project management and writing. I have a million book ideas in my head and I promised my friend Crystal I would publish something, someday. At the moment it would be a collection of blog style entries with quotes and things that I hold sacred. In my head it looks gorgeous and I can’t wait to share it! Lastly my parents 45h anniversary will be June 6, 2021 and I would love to do something really special for them to celebrate.

What are you passionate about?

So much! Let’s see: fitness classes (not even joking I am obsessed with working out, lol), spending time with people who just GET me (4 quarters > 100 pennies!), baking snacks (scones are my specialty but I am also known for coffee cake/banana bread, a plethora of cookies etc.), finding ways to make delicious but healthy lunches and dinners, the craziness that is the TV business (a career I often laugh about ending up in!), watching a project (be it work or personal) come together and the sense of accomplishment and pride that comes with it, writing!, color-coded Excels (with pivot tables created for me because I’m a princess, lol), cute Bitmoji filled conversations and perfect iced coffee. I am always on the quest for the perfect cold-brew iced coffee!

What are the biggest things you’ve learned about life to date?

Oh man this could be a BOOK in itself! One of my favorite movies is “High Fidelity” so I will give you *Sam’s Top 5 life lessons (in no particular order):

  1. “In three words I can sum up everything I have learned about life: it goes on”. Sounds simple and I know it’s a little 'basic bitch' but it’s true. I love sunsets and sunrises because they are a reminder that no matter how good or bad a day is, it will have a beginning and an end. Nothing is forever and life will move on – with or without you.

  2. “If it doesn’t open, it’s not your door”. Similarly “If the train doesn’t stop at your station, it’s not your train”. I have spent a fair amount of my days willing something I want to happen SO MUCH then being SO DEVASTATED when it did not come to fruition. Guess what? I can reflect on of those jobs / moves/ guys and say “Man I am SO glad that didn’t work out”. It wasn’t right for me. Perhaps at the moment it looked appealing, but from my current viewpoint it simply would not have worked with the person I am today.

  3. “Love Rewards the Brave” –I love me some Danielle LaPorte, especially in the form of a truthbomb.

  4. From Baz Luhrman’s “Everybody’s Free (To Wear Sunscreen)” (one of my absolute favorite spoken words pieces ever): “The race is long and in the end it’s only with yourself“. I struggle so much with comparing myself to everyone around me and wishing I could emulate them. It took a long time for me to be happy with myself and strive to be the best I can be. The girl next to you in class who is killing her burpees? Smile, compliment her and focus on yourself (keep your eyes on your own mat!). Show up to life every day and try to be better than you were yesterday – not better than the stranger next to you.

  5. “Remember everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something and has lost something“. Stay humble.

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